My heart sinks within me
and my mind reels at my situation.
For I am filling in a website full of mission statistics
when the world outside is utterly changed.
How can I compare 2021 with 2019?
Or even with 2020?
How can I explain the difference in numbers?
How can I tell the diocese why my heart sinks at my failings
Apart from remembering those that are still scared
those that have lost the habit
and those that are dead.
Is a BCP Communion a Fresh Expression?
What are "young people"?
I weep as I recall those days when I would fill in the stats
Knowing that the church was - to be frank - a quarter full
And rejoicing in the annual Messy Church
Though at the time I thought it was slightly paltry
- in retrospect, what a time to be alive!
But now I enter "Zero" in many columns
and wonder whether singing carols at the pub is a Fresh Expression
or an evening service.
I wonder how many people watch online
And whether it equals those that the post "reached"
Or those that "engaged"
Or those that got to the end
Knowing that in Facebook worship
There is no end.
But this I remember
As I submit my form
The mercies of the Lord are everlasting
That soon men and women will be marrying as in the days of Noah
(but not men and men, or women and women, for that would cause a Schism)
that baptisms will rise up like spring flowers
even like the flowers in the gardens of Babylon
and that though death may not be at an end
at least the weekly funerals might be.
Up here in the North-East, one bunch of churches seem to have weathered the storm rather well, the Independents that grew up here since the 1980s. Anecdotal evidence so far, but they are becoming much more prominent. Something to do with the discipleship thingy, putting Mission ahead of Social Justice as a priority.
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